Thoughts and catchups

Sunday share

  

Hii 🙂 hope you’re having a great weekend?! I thought I’d just do a quick ‘Sunday share’ just to explain why I’ve been awol and also because I have a good few posts coming up and just wanted to say hi 🙂

The past month has been such a wirlwind.. And my mind has been through hell to say the least, but I am back on tiptop(ish) form and I am so going to start getting my shit together!

So a few weeks ago I found out that my ‘boyfriend’ of nearly 10 years had been seeing someone behind my back, he’d lie about the hours he worked, always keep his phone hidden and on silent (whereas before he’d just leave it lying around anywhere).. So I kind of guessed something was up.. I had ‘suspicions’ about this girl already, they were texting and flirting (which is honestly all good) but then she started sending him photos.. One of which I showed him asking what was going on, for him to delete it, say I’m making it up and that I must be seeing things (I wasn’t)..

Then somehow she managed to get my phone number and was miss calling me constantly for a few days, stopped and then started again (which I don’t see no point in?!) then I found pictures of the two of them… And he couldn’t really deny them ones! So we had a terrible breakup, me getting the blame for it… And I’ve just been in a really bad place the past month or so…

I’m putting on a brave face and we’re ‘trying’ to be friends for the kids (he thinks we can give it another go, but I will definitely have some trust issues if do end up back together) I dunno, but I do feel majorly better after getting it off my chest, a small weight has been lifted 🙂

I very nearly deleted all of this, keep thinking I’m just overreacting.. But what the hell haha..

People say to be around friends while I feel like this, but all of my friends were his.. I haven’t got anyone that I can just let steam off to, so it’s been quite a struggle being on my own with just my thoughts…   But blogging is my ‘good place’ I can be creative and share things and just forget about everything else for a while.. So I’m back on it 😉

If you have any advice whatsoever, let me know (I’ll be very greatfull) 🙂 

Or am I just overreacting??

img_0198

Advertisements

9 thoughts on “Sunday share

  1. You’re not overreacting at all, he’s completely broken your trust. People don’t understand the the after effects of this unless they’ve been through it themselves, you’re left with a mix of emotions from anger to sadness to questioning yourself and wondering what made him stray. Just remember that you always were and are good enough and he is just greedy. I’m sure there are lots of us bloggers here for to talk about it to so don’t feel alone, stay strong and do what’s right for you and just you.

    Like

    1. Thank you very much.. This comment means a hell of a lot 💕
      I still have no idea how I feel.. He’s very good at f**king up my emotions and it’s definitely harder with kids being involved, I can’t just ignore and forget like I want to…
      Again, thank you 😘 xx

      Like

  2. I’m so glad that I stumbled upon this post! My blog has been neglected so much recently for somewhat the same reason with my first post going up today. I know it’s not the same as you guys were together longer and have kids but I recently went through a break up with someone I have been with since I was 14 (I’m now 18) and it’s so difficult. I’m the same with having no friends etc so I really hope you can find some support soon by getting out there and making friends which is what I am trying to do. I can assure you that you are not overreacting at all and what you have said and done is justified. I hope whether you guys get back together or stay apart that it works out for the best ❤ hadh0peamy.wordpress.com/

    Like

    1. Aww hun.. Sending hugs.. Four years is still a really long time so I hope your ok?
      It’s tough trying to get through it alone.. But I’m trying to stay positive 🙂
      Ever need someone to talk to just let me know xx

      Liked by 1 person

      1. I’m mostly okay! Going through a lot of change because it’s weird living alone and things but we still talk and are trying to work through things also. I’ve been looking at your Twitter and am glad to see a lot of positive tweets 🙂 Thank you xx

        Liked by 1 person

  3. I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been going through this. If it were my bloke who’d been seeing someone else I’d have cut his balls off. Haha. No but seriously, I don’t think you are overreacting at all. What he did is so wrong and so unforgivable. And although the decision is yours, I could foresee a lot of issues if you two gave it another go. There will be always doubt in your mind, I guess. It must be very difficult with kids involved too. Sending hugs. x http://www.aimeeraindropwrites.co.uk x

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sorry for the late reply. Thank you so much for the comment… Haha I did feel like cutting of his balls 😂 I think now he’s left were actually getting along better than before, I’m glad I didn’t give it another go, I know full well that I wouldn’t be able to trust him whatsoever and it just would be a terrible relationship to be in xx

      Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s