Hii! I hope you had an amazing New Years Eve, no matter what it was that you were up to. Personally, my evening was spent with the kids, having a tantrum, having chronic stomach cramps and then snuggling up to the boyfriend watching Deep water horizon (of which i still need to finish watching the last half).
2016 was, for me, both a shitty and amazing year. I miserably failed all the resolutions i had set myself (that’s a given though right?!), I was badly assaulted my ex boyfriend and life descended into chaos in my eyes. The first half of the year was really difficult. But i picked myself up and though it’s hard to forget all the bad things that have happened, so many amazing things have that make me partly forget.
Over the past few months i have slowly but surely started to find myself again, I’ve moved house and made a total fresh start. I have more happy days than sad days. I’m in a relationship with an amazing man (who in my eyes has the patience of a saint to deal with my emotional outbursts), he is so supportive and understanding and has definitely brought out the best in me. I’ve gained a lot of confidence through going to a few blogging events this year and in general just doing things that may not seem huge to other people but really was for me and i really do feel more the better for it.
I originally wrote a whole new years resolutions post, looking back on all the ones i failed last year and setting myself huge goals for this year that i more than likely wouldn’t accomplish. I thought it over and of course it’s a good time to set some goals but smaller more reasonable ones are in order i think, so here they are:
Be grateful for what i have and stop being such a whiny bitch! I’ve lost count of the amount of times I’ve worked myself up over something trivial that someone else has or is doing that I’ve lost focus on what i actually have. So what if someone has the latest eyeshadow palette or have been on holiday a million times?! They’ve more than likely worked their butt off for it and saved and if not then they are just lucky. So what if someone else is thinner or prettier than me?! I have no idea what they are going through and like me, they might not even like themselves. I have an amazing boyfriend and kids and i have a roof over my head. I need to focus on what i actually have and rather than feel jealous over somebody else just appreciate their qualities or the bomb ass photos they’ve taken of whatever new thing they have bought. I have a heck of a lot to be grateful for, i just need to realise it more often or go out and get what i want rather than sitting on my arse whinging about it.
Get back to work! Obviously the reason for me not working isn’t down to me at all. A lot of people moan about their job or working in general (and i used to do that too), but after being stuck at home for more than half a year i really do miss it. Sophie will be starting nursery soon and i totally have the motivation, it’s just getting back in there.
Fall back in love with blogging! If you read my catch up post the other day, you’ll see that i have managed to roughly schedule the whole of the year. I’ve thought of different posts that will get me to try new things, get me motivated and hopefully make me really get into blogging more than ever. Of course i will end up falling off schedule once in a while (that’s just a given with me) but I’ve had a spurge of motivation and i am hoping it will stick. Also, I’m hoping to re-vamp the entire blog.. New layout, new colours, new header etc. This will probably be later on in the year that it is all done but i am super looking forward to it.
Find myself! This one is really a bunch of goals rolled into one. I was unhappy for so long and trying to have different qualities of other people that i totally lost myself along the way. This year i want to work on my confidence and also self-love. I want to be able to be myself without caring what other people think. If i want to do something or if i want to work towards something, i need to stop sitting thinking ‘what if’ and not give a fuck. This year i am going to be selfish and put myself first (well after the kids of course).
And those are my goals for 2017! They may not sound huge to some people but this year i wanted to set realistic, achievable goals that will get me motivated and not make me think ‘ugh i haven’t done such and such’ at the end of this year.
Do you set yourself goals or resolutions at the beginning of the year?
If so, what are they this year?