Hii! I seem to be writing more catch up and apology posts than i do writing posts i’ve scheduled to actually write. I’m not going to start this post by saying sorry like i usually do in every one of these ‘catch-up’ posts. I figure i say sorry way to much for things that i dont actually have any need to be sorry for.
I had a really bad mental health weekend and that kinda put a downer on the rest of my week, but i have been doing sweet fuck all apart from reading and spending time with my kids, and even though im not a ‘big’ blogger and i don’t really have a huge readership i did feel guilty that i havent posted anything in quite a while.
I think when it comes to blogging, mental health and happiness come before it and i’ve figured that its something i shouldnt stress too much about and it be something that i can just enjoy doing.
I sound like a broken record i know! I end up having the same goals every month and every catch up post i write seems to sound the same. I’m stuck in a random limbo where everyday is the same and i’m doing a whole lot of nothing. God knows i want this to change, i want to do something good with my days other than just sit around waiting for an exciting life to be handed to me on a platter. It genuinely is a case of no motivation and no willingness to get up off my arse and work for what i want.
I think many people will agree that when you’re stuck in a rut, you don’t see any way out, you can see all your plans and dreams in the future but dont have any idea how you can get from where you are to where you want to be.
At some point you might have a huge amount of determination or motivation, but as soon as a little thing weighs itself upon your sholders, that determination or motivation deteriorates and you go back to that place of seeing yourself as a failure and thinking ‘whats the point?’
I recently finished reading ‘How to get your shit together’ by Sarah Knight and it was such a good read firstly. But one thing i took from it that i am totally gonna work on is having one big goal but breaking it into small manageable chunks. I think when you’ve broken a big goal down into small manageable ones, you can kinda forget about the bigger picture, focus on each small one and reach that bigger goal either more easily or quicker without having to worry if you’ve accomplished it yet.
And yeh, that is my rant for today 😀 Stay tuned for another of my ‘monthly goals’ posts, which will hopefully be up tomorrow and with a bit of luck i will be posting more often and more regular (if i can get my arse into gear).
Also, if you’ve been reading my posts for a long while… Thank you 🙂 I do notice and i do wholeheartedly appreciate you putting up with no regular schedule and all that crap.